What a lot of things that have happened and will happen within these few weeks.

Three days ago...

I've quarreled with all those that I've considered friends, and I now do not consider one of the three a friend. It may have been a small matter, but it showed me more than I have wanted to see. I have taken these ugly truths into my stride, or I have tried to.

One was a truly poisonous person. I perhaps should have seen and learned from what had happened two years before, when she broke up with the person she had considered a friend. I let myself be blinded by her, but it will not happen again. I will not be merely a follower. The person she broke up with over some trivial reason was and still is being ostracized. She still bears a grudge against that person, from what I've learned. I may not be the most forgiving person, but I strictly do not believe that the person needs to have this sort of punishment after two years. I don't consider her my friend.

Another was a classmate and close friend who exploded at me for no reason. After we had quarreled I found out that she had confided all the problems in our friendship to everyone but me. I've made it very clear to her, " If you have a problem with me, say it to my face." But I guess she didn't take it to heart. We managed to repair things, so it was ok. For now.

The last one was the one that hurt the most. She was my closet friend, closer than even my sisters. She was sadly, one of the "casualties" of my quarrel with the first person. To her, my apologies.

Today...
I got my Harry Potter book at 11 this morning, and I finished it at 7:03 this evening. I sat through it without eating lunch, without break. I now have an irritating neck ache to prove it.

But it was all worth it. That's all I'm going to say, because I hate spoilers, and I won't deny people the same sense of anticipation that I had, just because I was faster. So go ahead and enjoy it!

Four days later...

It'll be my birthday, I don't know what I'll do, seeing as I've school to go to and study...

But I'll be sixteen. That's big. Sixteen. I know that ten years ago, I would never envision myself being here, at this point.

My six year old self would have never thought that she'd stumble and never get near to the school she had always dreamed about. My six year old self would have never imagined that her daddy would get leukemia.

Yes, I sound so old. But wow. I've come so far, and I'll go even further, I know. Thanks to all my friends, mentors,family and enemies. I'd never have walked this far without the first steps that you made me take.

For the sake of SYF! My hair is shortish... like long enough to tie, but so short that the tied part looks like a duck's tail. But anyways, everyone says I look good, so I'll leave it as such.
SYF went good (t'was yesterday) but I'm so wiped out. I slept for 8 hours and it's still not enough! Had a biology test today and A math tomorrow....
I owe Kenneth () his blogskin... It's his birthday tomorrow! Give him love! He's been pretty down since SYF....


Oh and Akanksha! Welcome aboard... Can't believe you've been here since like last year and it took so long for you to find me! Zhen Gan is here too! go get her!

I shall give back to everyone what I owe them~!

Uh... Announcement...

Finally got the time to be back here.... after like uh.... a month? no... three weeks.

See, my computer's dead, I'm busy doing homework, busy dealing with the shit that people've been giving me (I've been threatened.... yes.)and I'm in a play!

All these are obviously not conducive( spelling??) to being in DAU. So....I guess I'm living out the withdrawal day by day...

According to my parents they're going to get it fixed... My hopes are not high.

Till then...My devwatch messages will increase to mind blowing altitudes. Due to everyone wanting to use the "spare computer" (my sisters[who watch great Anime like Bleach without telling me] and my dad [Internet Reversi Addict ]) I'm not even given the opportunity to do work ....

*switches topics*

I've gotten The Black Parade after listening the songs several times in class thanks to my male classmates (go, you noisy songblasters) and on radio (stop playing already!)

To my relief, it's all worth my money.

*switches topics again*

People keep bugging me for the computer, even though I HAVEN'T TOUCHED IT IN AGES (sorry, that was to emphasize that fact to the person sitting next to me, watching me type [HOW RUDE])

Shameless behavior indeed.

*switch topics thrice!*
I've also been hooked to some new anime (not so new to everyone, but Singapore IS slow in this kinda stuff)
-God Save Our King
-Get Backers
-Bleach
-Girl From Hell
(Some of you'll know what they are... but I've not been able to get the Japanese names)
And new manga!
-Vampire Knight

*switches topic four times!!!!*

Oh yeah, School!
I'm involved in a play (Bird of a Feather) for SYF (Singapore Youth Festival) which we will do a public performance later on. (bad english there)
And since I've ascended to new heights of seniorness [Sec4OMG ] I've gotten a class room with AIRCON! (so healthy in our hot hot weather) Go SCSS!
I've been handing up my homework on time, and my tests have all returned with stellar marks...so you can say I've sorted my life out.

*wants to switch topics, but is whined at by a sister*

Well everyone, best wishes... I'll be back in perhaps 2 or 3 weeks later if I'm lucky.

If anyone bothered to notice, I've not been around for a week or so, maybe longer.

My keyboard commited suicide on me, so I was stranded without one until my parents bothered to get a new one. Now with the new one, I'm slowly getting used to them and typoing everywhere.

Secondly, I was forceably "evicted" from home within an hour or so of reaching it after school last week. I wasn't feeling well, so I had to move to my grandmother's house to get well to avoid passing it to my father.

So I've just arrived home and will be online in full force with a new internet connection (faster speeds ^^) after a good rest.

Hmmm..... After today's Truth or Dare game, in which I chose Truth and Andrea asked me "Are you lesbian?", a question, I'm sure that many would like to know, because I behave so weirdly, I think everyone's going to tread carefully around me. For the record, I said no. But I also said something else behind.

Heh.

And why is my blog entry of the day titled "Grinning and Bearing it"? It's because of something that happened yesterday.

Yesterday, one of the Sec 2 girls in CCA was painting a banner with a group of juniors. So, seeing that the outlining of the thing was pretty fuzzy, and it looked horrible, I told them to straighten the lines out, smoothen it... And she snubbed me.

After that, when the group of junior went to wash up, that girl was there and I decided to smooth it out, but being the careless person I am, I dripped paint accidentally on it. Understandable mistake, right? At least one of you guys may have done that by accident once, overloading the brush until it dripped? But to her, it was as though I did it ON PURPOSE, to RUIN HER WORK. Well. So she told me off in front of everyone.

But really, the thing that got me, the irony of it all, was that there were other splotches of paint, made by others (who, I do not know) and I didn't see her screaming her head off at them. Hmmm...

But my savior tried to smooth everything out with the uh.... okay. With the girl. But to no avail. Even my savior was told off.

What gives this girl the right to tell off a senior and the secretary of the club, I've no idea, but I really dislike this kind of behaviour in people.

Today, I was snubbed by her again, but I kept my calm. I will not lose control over a prissy little idiot.

It was not the first time she did something like this.

Anyway, my plan of action is "Grinning and Bearing it." I'll bear with her for as long as needed, but I'll not speak a single word to her. I"ll also not tolerate any nonsense from her. I can, and will scream if needed.

Next matter.

I went to look for earrings today, because I couldn't find any decent, likable ones. So, I've decided to make some for myself. >>;